This year has been a year of incredible emotions. I have never felt so alive in my life. INTENSE.
Unfortunately, with all that “life feeling” stuff, there has also been some very low lows. It has not been all peachy.
I have had to re-evaluate myself and my journey. And after careful consideration and 20/20 Hindsight I would not change my decisions that brought me to this place in my life now.
I feel this deep intense feeling of control of my life that was not present before. If I fail, I fail on my terms and get back up and make changes as needed to get me to my goal.
When I succeed, I will succeed on my terms!
I have met a tremendous amount of people that I would have never met before. Beautiful talented individuals that I am proud to call friends.
My daughters have been along for the ride and this intensity. Whatever new skill I learn, they learn. They have met many of my friends and experienced events that make their little eyes just light up.
They know that there is much more to the world besides what exists in our area. These little girls will rule the world. Trust me, it’s going to happen. Do you feel the intensity?
Although this year has been amazing, I have this intense tummy wrenching (yes again!) feeling that next year will be a BREAKTHROUGH!
It feels as if at any moment I will hit the mythical Tipping Point. Some of the things I have personally been creating will simply “click”.
I would be lying to you if I didn’t tell you that this makes me very nervous. At times I think it may be the Fear of Success. Damnit!
I will be taking of this fear when I am face to face with it. Because next year will be a BREAKTHROUGH!