I’m Lost

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I feel lost.

For the past 18 years, I have spent a portion of each day wondering what I could do to support and love my daughters.

Are they ok? Are they feeling loved?
Am I giving them the tools they need to succeed?
Are they being intellectually challenged in school?
What are my blind spots?
What adventure are we going on the following weekend?
Who do they need to meet?
What new programming do I need to embed?
Am I a good father?


Parents can relate to this overwhelming feeling.

But now, they are developing into the powerful independent women that I had envisioned. All the seeds that were planted years ago are bearing fruit.

As a result, they need me less and less. They have interests, passions, and friendships that are taking their time and attention.

Where the hell did the time go? My older kid graduates in a couple of weeks. Someone slap me awake.

Then baby girl went and got a job. Good news, right? Yes, but now I hardly see her. Our small window of time together has now become even smaller.

I’m struggling with the transition, yet I know I’ll find a new way of being involved in their lives. I have so much more that I need to do download into their little brains.

I know it will all work out. It always has. I hope my girls remember to share their adventures with their old man. I’ll always be their daddy.

About the author

Teevee Aguirre

Teevee Aguirre is a storyteller, artist, and podcasting dad on a mission to become a better ancestor. He writes about life, fatherhood, and the beautifully messy journey of personal growth—wins, losses, and everything in between. A firm believer that struggle makes the best stories, he embraces his role as Father, Son, Super Model—not on the runway, but in the art of being a role model (a title his kids may or may not co-sign).

By Teevee Aguirre